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©A CAGE WITH A WINDOW (life in this ZOO):
Soon as your door closes you know you caged in
You hear that metal slamming shut against metal, & know you ain't getting out of prison until DOC says you can
Behind brick walls & tall razor wire gates
Under guard towers with men/women holding assault rifles
Any attempt at civil disorder has the threat of being quickly stifled
By LETHAL force!!!
Subjugated under the Devil's Disciples
Boxed in a tiny cage feeling claustrophobic
Several inches thick of white concrete walls
keeps you secured
IMPENETRABLE
White brick walls
On thin sheet metal bunk beds you stacked on top of each other in nice neat, cramped rows like sardines
You can't go more than a few feet without either bumping into someone or being within a few inches/couple feet
You can't escape being surrounded by people 24-7
Looking out the window, you see a world outside the fences physically, it's only literally A FEW FEET AWAY!!!
But you are so far out of reach of it, it might as well be miles or not even exist!!!
It's like staring at an optical illusion or watching a TV
Like TV because the outside is behind a glass screen, you can see everything, but can't feel, smell, or interact with it
You stare out the window sometimes for hours desiring to be on the other side of the fence
Imagining what it would be like if you was free RIGHT NOW!!!
What would you be doing?
Would you stay true to all your New Year's resolutions, promises & commitments you made to yourself?
Or will you mess up probation, get locked up again for violations, drugs or commit a new offense?
Will you find a job?
Will you have money?
Then you are snapped back into reality when you hear: "Attention in the facility! Formal count is now in progress."
As you watch the cops walk by & do their count with their little clipboards
You wonder: "What is this fool really like out there in the street?"
"Is this fool/woman this much of an a**h*** to people out there?"
If it's a nice cop who is actually
decent & respectful you wonder: "He/she ain't so bad (as far as cops go) why do they work here?"
Sometimes during count these cops get off by waking people up, they say: "Upper/Lower Bunk, count time!!! show some skin!"
Sometimes you be wide awake, but look like you sleeping so you know that your skin is visible, & know the cop thought you was sleeping & just wanted to wake you up!!!
What kind of EVIL person gets off to knowing they intentionally deprived a PERSON of sleep just to be an a**h***?
After you hear: "Count clear!!!"
You head to chow hall, like cows being herding to the pasture
Then you run into another cop who gets pleasure knowing he/she deprived someone of food!!!
They want to force you sit at a table with someone you don't know, don't like or uncomfortable around & if you don't you are "Trayed up"
If you pass someone some food you don't want who is sitting at another table & are seen you are also "Trayed up"
Food is necessary for every living beings survival, so what kind of EVIL person gets off knowing they INTENTIONALLY deprived another LIVING ORGANISM of food?
That is about AS LOW AS you can get!!!
STARVATION!!!
As you walk back to the Living Unit from chow, you look around, see the Seagulls, Crows, Pigeons, & Robins waiting for people to throw bread crumbs, apples or oranges
They are so hungry & used to people they don't run & fly away if you get close
In fact, they are bold & will walk right up to you
When they smell that food, they come out of nowhere, hundreds of them, hovering so low you are afraid they will collide with you
You look up & see swarms of birds, while hoping you ain't gonna get pooped on
As soon the birds see the food flying to the grass, they all swoop in for it, the first bird there often gets attacked or robbed straight from his/her beak unless he/she is big enough to scare the other birds!!!
Some birds share their food with their companions
Others threaten any bird who begs for a piece
Then as you head back into the building you look at it & dread what's inside...
You want to stay out all night & day & enjoy the fresh air & FREEDOM
Soon as you hit the Unit, you smell the stale, nasty stanky air, you smell POOP, mildew, rot, & all kind of unnamed, unrecognizable FUNK
You can't wait till they call: "Yard" so you can get some more FRESH air, see the sky, clouds, sun, moon, feel the sun, feel the rain...
As you walk the track, you savor every step, cherish every moment you ain't gotta be up in that stanky building, that loud obnoxiousZOO we call a: "Dayroom" & that microscopic cramped cell!!!
You realize how much people take freedom for granted, you realize how special everyday NORMAL things that people don't even take the time to notice are!!!
When you are deprived, you notice!!!
You wish you could feel the sun for just one more moment when they call: "Yard in"
You wish you could see the moon & the stars when you look at your window at night & can't see them
All you see is fences, barely alive yellow grass, concrete, a guard tower & the little white patrol car driving around in circles
And you are jealous, wishing you was in your own little car driving as far away from this place as you can!!!
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Jonathan Gordon 793350
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Stafford Creek Corrections Center
Aberdeen,WA 98520
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©A CAGE WITH A WINDOW (life in this ZOO):
Sometimes being in solitary don't seem so bad!!!
You wake up in a cell with someone you don't know from Adam & never know what you are gonna get
People's mood swings are so funny & unpredictable, you get tired of having to deal with it
IT IS CRAP!!!
We call those types of people: "Switch Up Artists" because they always are different, never tr same person
After being on prison for many years, you seek refuge in solitude, you crave being by yourself, & having privacy because it's rare almost nonexistent
You have days, even weeks or months on end where you don't even wan to leave the cell unless it's necessary!!!
You dread going out & having to deal with people, having to look at them, having to hear them, having to smell them, having to be close to them....
Everyday in here is the SAME
Same routine SAME MONOTONY, same programs, same CRAP!!!
Same fellow people in prison, same cops, same food selection/menu
Same TV shows, same music, same card games, same board games, same funky cell, same funky bed, same funky clothes...
SAME, SAME, SAME, SAME!!!
Nothing EVER changes!!!
It drives you INSANE!!!
But what can you do BUT DEAL with it?
YA BETTA LEARN HOW TO HANDLE THAT PLAYER!!!
You don't have NO CHOICE, you're not getting out, you're not going home, YOU ARE STUCK
Until your court ordered sentence is up!!!
For most it's 4-5 years average
Some it's less, some it's more, some it's ALL DAY-- LWOP'ed
I know people who have been STUCK & had to deal with this for over 30 even over 40 YEARS!!!
THEY WAS LOCKED UP BEFORE ME, MY BROTHER OR MY SISTER WAS BORN!!!
Imagine this being your life FOREVER, till the day YOU DIE!!!
Even year of this ZOO is TOO MUCH
A day is TOO MUCH
Even 1 HOUR is TOO MUCH!!!
I know people my age or younger, in earlier 20's or sentenced as Teenagers to 60, 70, 80, or even over 100 YEARS IN PRISON!!!
YOU CAN'T EVEN DO THAT much time!!!
Unless you live as long as they did in Adam's or Noah's times!!!
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©DOUBLE STANDARDS:
Responsibility---deflected
Blame--projected
Forgiveness--never accepted
We'd rather hold a grudge against another when you are wronged
A grudge that can last a LIFETIME
Even after the other person dies, you can still harbor a GRUDGE!!!
But when we do something wrong/bad to someone else, we don't give it a second thought
We keep it mashing like it ain't never happened & everything is cool
It's not EVER plausible you could ever have made a mistake
or been wrong
Slave to CONFLICT
Think you a brave CONVICT
Because you will fight for an EVIL cause that's WORTHLESS
Your life is a dead end & has no true PURPOSE
Victim to: the INFLUENCE of others!!!
Do whatever they say, even if it makes you unhappy & puts you in a situation where you LOSE
Outwardly you ACT like you don't care
Buy how do you not FEEL LIKE a FOOL when you get in trouble for doing another man/woman's dirty work?
And you call that LOYALTY?
Loyal to WHAT???
Loyal to: stupidity?
Loyal to: ignorance?
Loyal to: trouble?
Loyal to: problems?
Loyal to: chaos?
Loyal to: self destruction?
Loyalty to: People who don't care about you, PLAYED you, & used & abused you like a TRAMP!!!
You did something terrible to hurt someone else & YOURSELF, yet you want to be patted on the back & PRAISED!!!
You are convinced that being EVIL & following the Devil is how your worldly status will be raised?
In reality you are: a lunatic, a psychopath, a madman & you are most definitely--- CRAZED!!!
We believe all the bad things we hear about people ESPECIALLY THOSE WE DON'T LIKE or despise
We giggle, joke about how sorry they are, we tease them, & look down upon them
But when the same things are said about high & mighty YOU-- you become outraged & claim: "Man those is all lies!"
You seek out the source of the rumors
All you got on your mind is: confrontation, blood & leaving heads lumped like tumors!!!
So you have the right to gossip, backbite, & slander
But when people do it to you, IT'S NOT ACCEPTABLE!!!
Man if that's not a double standard...
What makes you ABOVE being talked about in a negative way?
Are you better than the next man/woman
Or maybe you are just an egostical, & arrogant LUNATIC!!!
Who gave you the right to judge another man/woman & put their name in the mud anyway?
What they do is what they do, it got nothing to do with you!!!
QUIT BEING A GOSSIP W**** & quit feeding into rumors!!!
You always got something to say about what someone else is doing
Always critiquing them, always pointing out there faults...
But when someone does the same to you YOU BECOME OFFENDED
You are always the one doling out advice, & always talking
but YOU NEVER LISTEN!!!
Why is it so frickin HARD for you to ACCEPT admonishment & take heed to good advice?
I mean ARE YOU STUPID?
Is your head TOO HARD to be penetrated with WISDOM???
LISTEN for once in your life!!!
Always barking orders at everyone else, yet when you are asked to do something ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU DON'T UNDERATAND ENGLISH!!!
You quickly become defiant & say: "I do what I want to, don't nobody tell me what to do!"
OK so you don't take orders from NO MAN?
EVERYONE no matter how rich, how powerful, how successful, has to take orders from someone at some point & do what they are told!!!
NO ONE IS ABOVE THAT!!!
So you ask someone to do something, they don't want to do it
How do you react?
WITH MALICE?
Is that the way to get someone to do something?
When confronted with malice, some people become DEFIANT & STANDOFFISH
Then what?
Tough guy/tough girl, you gonna fight?
You gonna sit there & argue & debate the point till you pass out?
What other options do you have that you could employ, without anyone getting ANGRY, OFFENDED or hurt?
Is PATIENCE a possibility?
Is calmness a possibility?
Is USING your faculties to be reasonable & rational plausible?
Once again--DOUBLE STANDARD!!!
You ain't got do nothing for nobody, or listen to nothing nobody say about nothing
But everybody gotta serve you & be at your beck & call?
If not they will be D*MNED!!!
FOOL YOU MUST BE OUT YOUR FRICKIN MIND!!!
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Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center
Aberdeen,WA 98520
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©HARDED & DON'T LISTEN
No positive role models
Taking straight to the neck Bumpy Face by the whole bottle
Jumped into the fast lane full throttle
Influenced while under the influence
75% of time ya'll supposed to be up in school you truants
Then your house gets a call from the Office of Attendance
Saying the only option is detention as a sentence
And if the kid keeps messing up, parent/gaurdian could be jailed
The kid will be getting expelled
Propelled
Like hermit coming out of the shell
Can barely add, subtract, multiply, divide or spell
But can tell different strains/strands of Chronic just by looks & smell
Coughing lungs out as you exhale
Smoking Black & Milds & Newports not worried about cancer or emphysema
Telling homies one day you when you grow up you gonna be pimps in Beamers
With a dozen Breezies 3 piece suits, Dobbs hats, a cane, with a limp & cleaner
Than a gallon of Clorox
So unorthodox
Methods they undertake just to score rocks
Looking for a quick come up & bask in the fame & glory
Others will look up to them & be amazed by their story
The homies say to do this or to do that, what choice do you have?
Man count that as being done
RUN THAT!!!
If you don't get down about your crown, you considered a square, a Jake, a softy
Your goals & ambitions about being THUG is quite high & lofty
Under the guise of being self confident & self assured
No matter how many times you stumble & fall, you refuse to be deterred
Too young, too IMMATURE
To realize that success in the GAME is never
The lines between success & failure is quite blurred
The blind leading the blind in packs & herds
referred
No graduation, no walking down the aisle, no diploma, no cap, gown or tassels
Just hassle after hassle after hassle
No car, no license, & no house so no being king of the castle
When he did decide to show up at school, he didn't study so he failed all the tests
Missed a lot of days because of Juvy time & his arrests
Now the question lingers: "How do you turn failure into success?"
He closely followed the footsteps of his successors
Got a GED then later tried CBC, but didn't last more than 2 semesters
It's almost like his failed attempts at education where no more than mere gestures
Sick of hearing Mom & Dad's admonitions & lectures
He's hard headed & his skin got a coarse texture
So the question is: "Will he EVER GET IT?"
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Stafford Creek Corrections Center
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©HARD HEADED YOUNGSTERS DON'T LEARN:
At the Park from early morning
Till it's late & dark
A sea full of sharks
Slapping E-40, Spice 1, Rappin Foe Tay, Gangstarr, Scarface & Nas
Still in High School but breaking all kind of laws
Can't wait to get dirty paws
Life is going up & down like see saws
But it ain't nothing
Go to school get another suspension
Keep ending up in Benton/Franklin Juvy Detention
At home with a strict Moms & Pops you can feel the tension
They upset & disappointed kids was troublemakers & didn't listen
Engaged in a dead end life with no 401K plans or no pension
Always lecturing them on what's wrong & right, what to do, what not to do, but it seems like brains lack any capacity for retention
Some just act out cause they desperately need attention
Other kids just imitate the Old heads, "Big" Homies, & Henchmen
It's all just an extension
Of need to be accepted & fit in this materialistic
Lynchpin
Them kids just keep inchin & inchin
Towards a date with disaster
Slave to other people & Jinn
as their gods & masters
Single Moms too young to properly raise young Bastards
Too strung out on drugs to warn kids of the game's hazards
Once they get in any valid point you raised to talk em to getting out & coming back home, is moot
Soon as they can walk & talk they leave the crib & scoot
To spots where homies got firmly established roots
On the blade where they slang crack & shoot
In track suits
And black boots
Chuck Taylor's, Ben Davis, & Dickies
Cool Water, Joop, Polo Sport, gotta be fresh cause the choosin breezies is picky
Off that sticky
Off 64 oz of Carlo Rossi & Mickies
In the basement with a neck full of hickies
Strawberries & they bad friends
From Kurtzman Park to 10th & Olympia to being up at that pad in
The dead end on Jadwin
On a quest to party & stack mad ends
Young teens meet a sad end
Neighborhood Stars become has beens
Nothing but a past fad, jinns
Inhabit young mad man's skin
He muat be from a different species
Creeping around in the still of the night in Ecko, South pole, & Enyce
Up to his eyebrows in trouble & feces
Actin like it's all hunk a dory & peachy
Instigating friends provoke him to start small then convince him to escalate
On a quest of late
To find sexual mate
One he can Finesse into a date
Instead of learning to choose women to procreate & domesticate
They only choose ones They speculate
That they can
Rock the crotch
Only concern is having the top tier, TOP NOTCH
Jumpin from strawberry to strawberry like hop scotch
Always got some quick fix DIY when plans to conquer the next conquest is botched
Philanthropist never know when they being watched
The basis of the concepts
Is taking the meaning of relationships out of context
It's putting too much value in the conquests
The money & the bomb sex
Put NO value in the individual outside of USURY
In order to play the game you charge them a USER FEE
If they can't afford the sit in fee
Then it's CURTAINS
I tell you what: on thing is for certain
If you CAN'T yours player, you gonna be left HURTIN!!!
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Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center
Aberdeen,WA 98520
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©IS THERE HELP FOR FOLKS LIKE ME?
LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?
Is it too late to be saved?
Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?
God please forgive me!!!
Mom & Dad tried their best to raise me right
But I was belligerent, all I wanted to do was party & have sex with women all night
They instilled into me morals, ethics, manners & respect, but I ignored it all because all I wanted to do was FIGHT!!!
Been getting in trouble since the 1st grade, but back when I was a juvenile, the punishments was light
But now as an adult i'm sitting in the Joint with NO END to this punishment IN SIGHT!!
LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?
Is it too late to be saved?
Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?
God please forgive me!!!
My journey started at 8 years old by stealin from stores
And ended in the Trap House with drug dealing & meth smoking Wh***s
Watching the poor Engaged in drug wars
In the between time as the years progressed
All I wanted to do was be in the streets & stay off the grid
I remember breaking into cars, houses & businesses & vandalizing as a kid
Almost every night we was running from the Cops, hiding in bushes, jumping over fences & doing Juvy Detention bids
I remember being on probation & failing pee tests then going AWOL because I got warrants, then lying to my parents & p.o. about where I been & what I did
Disappearing for weeks sometimes even months at a time, nobody but me knew where I hid
Only when I slipped up by getting picked up for another charge is when I would reemerge,
Spent my days in hiding by meeting nice females to take me in, or getting a little money so I could splurge
And just like that I would pick up & move again without warning or telling no one as soon as I got bored & felt the urge
Like a nomad
A travelling man with NO PAD
Just the possessions I could fit in 2 suitcases
Now again the pursuit on, chases
After another PIPE DREAM
LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?
Is it too late to be saved?
Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?
God please forgive me!!!
My family has always been there with me since birth
Even at times when I suffered from low self esteem & low self worth
The days when I felt like nothing but a plague walking the earth
Nothing I did, not getting high, not having women, or anything I did ever brought me a real sense of joy
Everywhere I turned, it was a piece of me ended up being destroyed
At times I was homeless, penniless, & couldn't seem to get emoployed
Not caring about the fact Mom & Dad was concerned for & worried about their poor boy
Nobody in the family knew when I was coming or going or when I would disappear or wind up in jail
I was EMPTY, just trying to fill a void
I thought by ACTING as something I WASN'T it would impress my peers & bring me recognition
I believed in & valued the practice of repetition
Because practicing being perfect makes perfect, through years of trial & error
You quickly learn in the streets you reign by violence & sheer TERROR
Or at least potraying that PERCEIVED image
LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?
Is it too late to be saved?
Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?
God please forgive me!!!
Depression
Reaching higher & higher to be something I NEVER WAS became my obsession
Delusional, brain filled with so much congestion
Filled with peer pressure & the Devil's whispers & suggestions
Directing me to do this & do that with a lack of remorse or conscious
Waiting for any opportunity to strike, rocking back & forth on my haunches
And as soon as something jumped off, the missle launches
I been around some cold psychopaths & I suppose I acquired some of their signature characteristics & traits
When I thought I was a shark, I was really JUST BAIT
At the bottom of the food chain just waiting to get ATE!!!
LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?
Is it too late to be saved?
Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?
God please forgive me!!!
When you feel that success is UNATTAINABLE
When you feel like staying out of trouble & SQUARING UP is UNSUSTAINABLE
Sometimes the motivation to do what we do is unexplainable
I found myself doing things for no reason other than OPPURTUNITY & the fact that I COULD
My heart told me not to do it, but the voice in my head said: "Why not? You know you SHOULD!"
"Don't be scared, don't be a punk, man don't you worry about getting caught"
I tried to forget about it all & erase them bad thoughts
But sooner or later I talked myself into doing EVIL acts
Over time I came
to realize in the end, even if I don't get caught I still gotta DEAL WITH GOD
Or better yet--GOD WILL DEAL WITH ME!!!
And now that's what SCARES ME!!!
Now I think twice when temptation to do something bad strikes
I can't honetly say I fully understand what it means to like what God likes & dislike what God dislikes
But hopefully when the time calls to defend against evil, the little knowledge I have access to will SUFFICE!!!
LOST CAUSE!!!
Is it too late for me to be saved?
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Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center
Aberdeen,WA 98520
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©CONFINEMENT:
Consigned
To a life of being confined
Behind enemy lines
It was a trap from the get, this is the way it was designed
Because his beliefs wasn't aligned
With the 1%
He was cast off & exiled
He had plans, but there was wrinkles thrown in them like textiles
He is now determined, MORE DETERMINED THAN EVER to go the extra mile
To make it happen
Activism
Standing up for a cause you believe in is his definition
Active in bringing awareness & recognition
To the wrongs suffered by 8 million citizens
Who are treated as LOW class, WORST than abandoned animals
Thrown in a filthy lawless cage where they eat each other up like CANNIBALS
He's seen people get wrecked, everything from tatted eyes, to getting poked & fractured mandibles
This is what happens when people are STRIPPED of any sense of identity & dignity
And pitted against each other for amusement like gladiators in the coliseum
I'm just an observer caught in the cross fire, calling it as I see em
Falling to the Demons
Diabolic
Dying as alcoholics
And addicts to pipes & syringes
Days & weeks on end lost in drug fueled binges
The part of society that's on the fringes
Don't understand
the things we have to suffer through, which makes an average person cringe
It's off the hinges
Marginalized
Stigmatized
Couldn't ask for a harder life
Mastering the art of lies
Telling myself it's gonna be all right, & I can get comfortable
But as soon as I let my guard down, I am susceptible to being dominated
Weakness is a liability
To the best of my ability
I thrive in this facility
Strive for a sense of normalcy & righteous stability
Under this abnormal & adverse conditions
With low quality healthcare people DYING!!! because of TREATABLE medical conditions
Every week see first hand how the newest fresh off the chain admissions
Deal with adjusting to a life under SUBMISSION
The first timers don't get it!!! They don't see how the system has been changed & has become so diluted
They thingk they can do want they want with no repercussions & it's all just a big ole funny joke
Until somebody who ran they chompers or reneged on a debt get they neck poked
DON'T NOBODY GIVE A CRAP!!!
The ones who try to make something positive out this HELL HOLE DUNGEON is very FEW
Some find comfort, security & solace in a Friday Jumu'ah service or a Sunday Church pew
People coming to prison & seeking religion as a refuge & shield ain't nothing new
Regardless of who is doing what--this place is ALWAYS still gonna be a wild OUT OF CONTROl ZOO!!!
Man, what it all boils down to is this: IT'S ALWAYS GONNA DO WHAT IT DO!!!
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H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center
Aberdeen,WA 98520
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