Thursday, June 16, 2016

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©A CAGE WITH A WINDOW (life in this ZOO):

Soon as your door closes you know you caged in

You hear that metal slamming shut against metal, & know you ain't getting out of prison until DOC says you can

Behind brick walls & tall razor wire gates

Under guard towers with men/women holding assault rifles

Any attempt at civil disorder has the threat of being quickly stifled

By LETHAL force!!!

Subjugated under the Devil's Disciples

Boxed in a tiny cage feeling claustrophobic

Several inches thick of white concrete walls 
keeps you secured

IMPENETRABLE

White brick walls

On thin sheet metal bunk beds you stacked on top of each other in nice neat, cramped rows like sardines

You can't go more than a few feet without either bumping into someone or being within a few inches/couple feet

You can't escape being surrounded by people 24-7

Looking out the window, you see a world outside the fences physically, it's only literally A FEW FEET AWAY!!!

But you are so far out of reach of it, it might as well be miles or not even exist!!! 

It's like staring at an optical illusion or watching a TV

Like TV because the outside is behind a glass screen, you can see everything, but can't feel, smell, or interact with it

You stare out the window sometimes for hours desiring to be on the other side of the fence

Imagining what it would be like if you was free RIGHT NOW!!!

What would you be doing?

Would you stay true to all your New Year's resolutions, promises & commitments you made to yourself?

Or will you mess up probation, get locked up again for violations, drugs or commit a new offense?

Will you find a job? 

Will you have money?

Then you are snapped back into reality when you hear: "Attention in the facility! Formal count is now in progress."

As you watch the cops walk by & do their count with their little clipboards

You wonder: "What is this fool really like out there in the street?"

"Is this fool/woman this much of an a**h*** to people out there?"

If it's a nice cop who is actually
decent & respectful you wonder: "He/she ain't so bad (as far as cops go) why do they work here?"

Sometimes during count these cops get off by waking people up, they say: "Upper/Lower Bunk, count time!!! show some skin!"

Sometimes you be wide awake, but look like you sleeping so you know that your skin is visible, & know the cop thought you was sleeping & just wanted to wake you up!!!

What kind of EVIL person gets off to knowing they intentionally deprived a PERSON of sleep just to be an a**h***?

After you hear: "Count clear!!!"
You head to chow hall, like cows being herding to the pasture

Then you run into another cop who gets pleasure knowing he/she deprived someone of food!!!

They want to force you sit at a table with someone you don't know, don't like or uncomfortable around & if you don't you are "Trayed up"

If you pass someone some food you don't want who is sitting at another table & are seen you are also "Trayed up"

Food is necessary for every living beings survival, so what kind of EVIL person gets off knowing they INTENTIONALLY deprived another LIVING ORGANISM of food?

That is about AS LOW AS you can get!!!

STARVATION!!!

As you walk back to the Living Unit from chow, you look around, see the Seagulls, Crows, Pigeons, & Robins waiting for people to throw bread crumbs, apples or oranges

They are so hungry & used to people they don't run & fly away if you get close

In fact, they are bold & will walk right up to you

When they smell that food, they come out of nowhere, hundreds of them, hovering so low you are afraid they will collide with you

You look up & see swarms of birds, while hoping you ain't gonna get pooped on

As soon the birds see the food flying to the grass, they all swoop in for it, the first bird there often gets attacked or robbed straight from his/her beak unless he/she is big enough to scare the other birds!!!

Some birds share their food with their companions

Others threaten any bird who begs for a piece

Then as you head back into the building you look at it & dread what's inside...

You want to stay out all night & day & enjoy the fresh air & FREEDOM

Soon as you hit the Unit, you smell the stale, nasty stanky air, you smell POOP, mildew, rot, & all kind of unnamed, unrecognizable FUNK

You can't wait till they call: "Yard" so you can get some more FRESH air, see the sky, clouds, sun, moon, feel the sun, feel the rain...

As you walk the track, you savor every step, cherish every moment you ain't gotta be up in that stanky building, that loud obnoxiousZOO we call a: "Dayroom" & that microscopic cramped cell!!!

You realize how much people take freedom for granted, you realize how special everyday NORMAL things that people don't even take the time to notice are!!!

When you are deprived, you notice!!!

You wish you could feel the sun for just one more moment when they call: "Yard in"

You wish you could see the moon & the stars when you look at your window at night & can't see them

All you see is fences, barely alive yellow grass, concrete, a guard tower & the little white patrol car driving around in circles

And you are jealous, wishing you was in your own little car driving as far away from this place as you can!!!

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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©A CAGE WITH A WINDOW (life in this ZOO):

Sometimes being in solitary don't seem so bad!!!

You wake up in a cell with someone you don't know from Adam & never know what you are gonna get

People's mood swings are so funny & unpredictable, you get tired of having to deal with it

IT IS CRAP!!!

We call those types of people: "Switch Up Artists" because they always are different, never tr same person

After being on prison for many years, you seek refuge in solitude, you crave being by yourself, & having privacy because it's rare almost nonexistent

You have days, even weeks or months on end where you don't even wan to leave the cell unless it's necessary!!!

You dread going out & having to deal with people, having to look at them, having to hear them, having to smell them, having to be close to them....

Everyday in here is the SAME

Same routine SAME MONOTONY, same programs, same CRAP!!!

Same fellow people in prison, same cops, same food selection/menu

Same TV shows, same music, same card games, same board games, same funky cell, same funky bed, same funky clothes...

SAME, SAME, SAME, SAME!!!

Nothing EVER changes!!!

It drives you INSANE!!!

But what can you do BUT DEAL with it?

YA BETTA LEARN HOW TO HANDLE THAT PLAYER!!!

You don't have NO CHOICE, you're not getting out, you're not going home, YOU ARE STUCK

Until your court ordered sentence is up!!!

For most it's 4-5 years average

Some it's less, some it's more, some it's ALL DAY-- LWOP'ed 

I know people who have been STUCK & had to deal with this for over 30 even over 40 YEARS!!!

THEY WAS LOCKED UP BEFORE ME, MY BROTHER OR MY SISTER WAS BORN!!!

Imagine this being your life FOREVER, till the day YOU DIE!!!

Even year of this ZOO is TOO MUCH

A day is TOO MUCH

Even 1 HOUR is TOO MUCH!!!

I know people my age or younger, in earlier 20's or sentenced as Teenagers to 60, 70, 80, or even over 100 YEARS IN PRISON!!!

YOU CAN'T EVEN DO THAT much time!!!

Unless you live as long as they did in Adam's or Noah's times!!!

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©DOUBLE STANDARDS:

Responsibility---deflected

Blame--projected

Forgiveness--never accepted

We'd rather hold a grudge against another when you are wronged

A grudge that can last a LIFETIME

Even after the other person dies, you can still harbor a GRUDGE!!!

But when we do something wrong/bad to someone else, we don't give it a second thought

We keep it mashing like it ain't never happened & everything is cool

It's not EVER plausible you could ever have made a mistake
or been wrong

Slave to CONFLICT

Think you a brave CONVICT

Because you will fight for an EVIL cause that's WORTHLESS

Your life is a dead end & has no true PURPOSE

Victim to: the INFLUENCE of others!!!

Do whatever they say, even if it makes you unhappy & puts you in a situation where you LOSE

Outwardly you ACT like you don't care

Buy how do you not FEEL LIKE a FOOL when you get in trouble for doing another man/woman's dirty work?

And you call that LOYALTY?

Loyal to WHAT???

Loyal to: stupidity?

Loyal to: ignorance?

Loyal to: trouble?

Loyal to: problems?

Loyal to: chaos?

Loyal to: self destruction?

Loyalty to: People who don't care about you, PLAYED you, & used & abused you like a TRAMP!!!

You did something terrible to hurt someone else & YOURSELF, yet you want to be patted on the back & PRAISED!!!

You are convinced that being EVIL & following the Devil is how your worldly status will be raised?

In reality you are: a lunatic, a psychopath, a madman & you are most definitely--- CRAZED!!!

We believe all the bad things we hear about people ESPECIALLY THOSE WE DON'T LIKE or despise

We giggle, joke about how sorry they are, we tease them, & look down upon them 

But when the same things are said about high & mighty YOU-- you become outraged & claim: "Man those is all lies!"

You seek out the source of the rumors

All you got on your mind is: confrontation, blood & leaving heads lumped like tumors!!!

So you have the right to gossip, backbite, & slander

But when people do it to you, IT'S NOT ACCEPTABLE!!!

Man if that's not a double standard...

What makes you ABOVE being talked about in a negative way?

Are you better than the next man/woman

Or maybe you are just an egostical, & arrogant LUNATIC!!!

Who gave you the right to judge another man/woman & put their name in the mud anyway?

What they do is what they do, it got nothing to do with you!!!

QUIT BEING A GOSSIP W**** & quit feeding into rumors!!!

You always got something to say about what someone else is doing

Always critiquing them, always pointing out there faults...

But when someone does the same to you YOU BECOME OFFENDED

You are always the one doling out advice, & always talking

but YOU NEVER LISTEN!!!

Why is it so frickin HARD for you to ACCEPT admonishment & take heed to good advice?

I mean ARE YOU STUPID?

Is your head TOO HARD to be penetrated with WISDOM???

LISTEN for once in your life!!!

Always barking orders at everyone else, yet when you are asked to do something ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU DON'T UNDERATAND ENGLISH!!!

You quickly become defiant & say: "I do what I want to, don't nobody tell me what to do!"

OK so you don't take orders from NO MAN?

EVERYONE no matter how rich, how powerful, how successful, has to take orders from someone at some point & do what they are told!!!

NO ONE IS ABOVE THAT!!!

So you ask someone to do something, they don't want to do it

How do you react?

WITH MALICE?

Is that the way to get someone to do something?

When confronted with malice, some people become DEFIANT & STANDOFFISH

Then what?

Tough guy/tough girl, you gonna fight?

You gonna sit there & argue & debate the point till you pass out?

What other options do you have that you could employ, without anyone getting ANGRY, OFFENDED or hurt?

Is PATIENCE a possibility?

Is calmness a possibility?

Is USING your faculties to be reasonable & rational plausible?

Once again--DOUBLE STANDARD!!!

You ain't got do nothing for nobody, or listen to nothing nobody say about nothing

But everybody gotta serve you & be at your beck & call?

If not they will be D*MNED!!!

FOOL YOU MUST BE OUT YOUR FRICKIN MIND!!!

Thanks for your time!!!


Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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©HARDED & DON'T LISTEN

No positive role models

Taking straight to the neck Bumpy Face by the whole bottle

Jumped into the fast lane full throttle

Influenced while under the influence

75% of time ya'll supposed to be up in school you truants

Then your house gets a call from the Office of Attendance

Saying the only option is detention as a sentence

And if the kid keeps messing up, parent/gaurdian could be jailed

The kid will be getting expelled

Propelled

Like hermit coming out of the shell

Can barely add, subtract, multiply, divide or spell

But can tell different strains/strands of Chronic just by looks & smell

Coughing lungs out as you exhale

Smoking Black & Milds & Newports not worried about cancer or emphysema

Telling homies one day you when you grow up you gonna be pimps in Beamers

With a dozen Breezies 3 piece suits, Dobbs hats, a cane, with a limp & cleaner

Than a gallon of Clorox

So unorthodox

Methods they undertake just to score rocks

Looking for a quick come up & bask in the fame & glory

Others will look up to them & be amazed by their story

The homies say to do this or to do that, what choice do you have?

Man count that as being done

RUN THAT!!!

If you don't get down about your crown, you considered a square, a Jake, a softy

Your goals & ambitions about being THUG is quite high & lofty

Under the guise of being self confident & self assured

No matter how many times you stumble & fall, you refuse to be deterred

Too young, too IMMATURE

To realize that success in the GAME is never 

The lines between success & failure is quite blurred

The blind leading the blind in packs & herds

referred

No graduation, no walking down the aisle, no diploma, no cap, gown or tassels

Just hassle after hassle after hassle

No car, no license, & no house so no being king of the castle

When he did decide to show up at school, he didn't study so he failed all the tests

Missed a lot of days because of Juvy time & his arrests

Now the question lingers: "How do you turn failure into success?"

He closely followed the footsteps of his successors

Got a GED then later tried CBC, but didn't last more than 2 semesters

It's almost like his failed attempts at education where no more than mere gestures

Sick of hearing Mom & Dad's admonitions & lectures

He's hard headed & his skin got a coarse texture

So the question is: "Will he EVER GET IT?"

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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©HARD HEADED YOUNGSTERS DON'T LEARN:

At the Park from early morning 

Till it's late & dark

A sea full of sharks

Slapping E-40, Spice 1, Rappin Foe Tay, Gangstarr, Scarface & Nas

Still in High School but breaking all kind of laws

Can't wait to get dirty paws

Life is going up & down like see saws

But it ain't nothing 
Go to school get another suspension

Keep ending up in Benton/Franklin Juvy Detention

At home with a strict Moms & Pops you can feel the tension

They upset & disappointed kids was troublemakers & didn't listen

Engaged in a dead end life with no 401K plans or no pension

Always lecturing them on what's wrong & right, what to do, what not to do, but it seems like brains lack any capacity for retention

Some just act out cause they desperately need attention

Other kids just imitate the Old heads, "Big" Homies, & Henchmen

It's all just an extension

Of need to be accepted & fit in this materialistic 
Lynchpin

Them kids just keep inchin & inchin

Towards a date with disaster

Slave to other people & Jinn
as their gods & masters

Single Moms too young to properly raise young Bastards

Too strung out on drugs to warn kids of the game's hazards

Once they get in any valid point you raised to talk em to getting out & coming back home, is moot

Soon as they can walk & talk they leave the crib & scoot

To spots where homies got firmly established roots

On the blade where they slang crack & shoot

In track suits

And black boots

Chuck Taylor's, Ben Davis, & Dickies

Cool Water, Joop, Polo Sport, gotta be fresh cause the choosin breezies is picky

Off that sticky

Off 64 oz of Carlo Rossi & Mickies

In the basement with a neck full of hickies

Strawberries & they bad friends

From Kurtzman Park to 10th & Olympia to being up at that pad in

The dead end on Jadwin

On a quest to party & stack mad ends

Young teens meet a sad end

Neighborhood Stars become has beens

Nothing but a past fad, jinns

Inhabit young mad man's skin

He muat be from a different species

Creeping around in the still of the night in Ecko, South pole, & Enyce

Up to his eyebrows in trouble & feces

Actin like it's all hunk a dory & peachy

Instigating friends provoke him to start small then convince him to escalate

On a quest of late

To find sexual mate

One he can Finesse into a date

Instead of learning to choose women to procreate & domesticate

They only choose ones They speculate

That they can 

Rock the crotch

Only concern is having the top tier, TOP NOTCH

Jumpin from strawberry to strawberry like hop scotch

Always got some quick fix DIY when plans to conquer the next conquest is botched

Philanthropist never know when they being watched

The basis of the concepts

Is taking the meaning of relationships out of context

It's putting too much value in the conquests

The money & the bomb sex

Put NO value in the individual outside of USURY

In order to play the game you charge them a USER FEE

If they can't afford the sit in fee

Then it's CURTAINS

I tell you what: on thing is for certain

If you CAN'T yours player, you gonna be left HURTIN!!!

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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©IS THERE HELP FOR FOLKS LIKE ME?

LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?

Is it too late to be saved?

Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?

God please forgive me!!!

Mom & Dad tried their best to raise me right

But I was belligerent, all I wanted to do was party & have sex with women all night

They instilled into me morals, ethics, manners & respect, but I ignored it all because all I wanted to do was FIGHT!!!

Been getting in trouble since the 1st grade, but back when I was a juvenile, the punishments was light

But now as an adult i'm sitting in the Joint with NO END to this punishment IN SIGHT!!

LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?

Is it too late to be saved?

Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?

God please forgive me!!!

My journey started at 8 years old by stealin from stores

And ended in the Trap House with drug dealing & meth smoking Wh***s

Watching the poor Engaged in drug wars

In the between time as the years progressed

All I wanted to do was be in the streets & stay off the grid

I remember breaking into cars, houses & businesses & vandalizing as a kid

Almost every night we was running from the Cops, hiding in bushes, jumping over fences & doing Juvy Detention bids

I remember being on probation & failing pee tests then going AWOL because I got warrants, then lying to my parents & p.o. about where I been & what I did

Disappearing for weeks sometimes even months at a time, nobody but me knew where I hid

Only when I slipped up by getting picked up for another charge is when I would reemerge, 

Spent my days in hiding by meeting nice females to take me in, or getting a little money so I could splurge

And just like that I would pick up & move again without warning or telling no one as soon as I got bored & felt the urge

Like a nomad

A travelling man with NO PAD

Just the possessions I could fit in 2 suitcases

Now again the pursuit on, chases

After another PIPE DREAM

LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?

Is it too late to be saved?

Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?

God please forgive me!!!

My family has always been there with me since birth

Even at times when I suffered from low self esteem & low self worth

The days when I felt like nothing but a plague walking the earth

Nothing I did, not getting high, not having women, or anything I did ever brought me a real sense of joy

Everywhere I turned, it was a piece of me ended up being destroyed

At times I was homeless, penniless, & couldn't seem to get emoployed

Not caring about the fact Mom & Dad was concerned for & worried about their poor boy

Nobody in the family knew when I was coming or going or when I would disappear or wind up in jail

I was EMPTY, just trying to fill a void

I thought by ACTING as something I WASN'T it would impress my peers & bring me recognition 

I believed in & valued the practice of repetition

Because practicing being perfect makes perfect, through years of trial & error

You quickly learn in the streets you reign by violence & sheer TERROR

Or at least potraying that PERCEIVED image

LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?

Is it too late to be saved?

Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?

God please forgive me!!!

Depression

Reaching higher & higher to be something I NEVER WAS became my obsession

Delusional, brain filled with so much congestion

Filled with peer pressure & the Devil's whispers & suggestions

Directing me to do this & do that with a lack of remorse or conscious

Waiting for any opportunity to strike, rocking back & forth on my haunches

And as soon as something jumped off, the missle launches

I been around some cold psychopaths & I suppose I acquired some of their signature characteristics & traits

When I thought I was a shark, I was really JUST BAIT

At the bottom of the food chain just waiting to get ATE!!!

LOST CAUSE:
Is there any helping somebody like me?

Is it too late to be saved?

Will I still be a perpetual failure when I hit the grave?

God please forgive me!!!

When you feel that success is UNATTAINABLE

When you feel like staying out of trouble & SQUARING UP is UNSUSTAINABLE

Sometimes the motivation to do what we do is unexplainable

I found myself doing things for no reason other than OPPURTUNITY & the fact that I COULD

My heart told me not to do it, but the voice in my head said: "Why not? You know you SHOULD!"

"Don't be scared, don't be a punk, man don't you worry about getting caught"

I tried to forget about it all & erase them bad thoughts

But sooner or later I talked myself into doing EVIL acts

Over time I came 
to realize in the end, even if I don't get caught I still gotta DEAL WITH GOD

Or better yet--GOD WILL DEAL WITH ME!!!

And now that's what SCARES ME!!!

Now I think twice when temptation to do something bad strikes

I can't honetly say I fully understand what it means to like what God likes & dislike what God dislikes

But hopefully when the time calls to defend against evil, the little knowledge I have access to will SUFFICE!!!

LOST CAUSE!!!
Is it too late for me to be saved?

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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©CONFINEMENT:

Consigned

To a life of being confined

Behind enemy lines

It was a trap from the get, this is the way it was designed

Because his beliefs wasn't aligned

With the 1%

He was cast off & exiled

He had plans, but there was wrinkles thrown in them like textiles

He is now determined, MORE DETERMINED THAN EVER to go the extra mile

To make it happen

Activism

Standing up for a cause you believe in is his definition

Active in bringing awareness & recognition

To the wrongs suffered by 8 million citizens 

Who are treated as LOW class, WORST than abandoned animals

Thrown in a filthy lawless cage where they eat each other up like CANNIBALS

He's seen people get wrecked, everything from tatted eyes, to getting poked & fractured mandibles

This is what happens when people are STRIPPED of any sense of identity & dignity

And pitted against each other for amusement like gladiators in the coliseum

I'm just an observer caught in the cross fire, calling it as I see em

Falling to the Demons

Diabolic

Dying as alcoholics

And addicts to pipes & syringes

Days & weeks on end lost in drug fueled binges

The part of society that's on the fringes

Don't understand 
the things we have to suffer through, which makes an average person cringe

It's off the hinges

Marginalized

Stigmatized

Couldn't ask for a harder life

Mastering the art of lies

Telling myself it's gonna be all right, & I can get comfortable

But as soon as I let my guard down, I am susceptible to being dominated

Weakness is a liability

To the best of my ability

I thrive in this facility

Strive for a sense of normalcy & righteous stability

Under this abnormal & adverse conditions

With low quality healthcare people DYING!!! because of TREATABLE medical conditions

Every week see first hand how the newest fresh off the chain admissions

Deal with adjusting to a life under SUBMISSION

The first timers don't get it!!! They don't see how the system has been changed & has become so diluted

They thingk they can do want they want with no repercussions & it's all just a big ole funny joke

Until somebody who ran they chompers or reneged on a debt get they neck poked

DON'T NOBODY GIVE A CRAP!!!

The ones who try to make something positive out this HELL HOLE DUNGEON is very FEW

Some find comfort, security & solace in a Friday Jumu'ah service or a Sunday Church pew

People coming to prison & seeking religion as a refuge & shield ain't nothing new

Regardless of who is doing what--this place is ALWAYS still gonna be a wild OUT OF CONTROl ZOO!!!

Man, what it all boils down to is this: IT'S ALWAYS GONNA DO WHAT IT DO!!!

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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