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Thanks/Praise to God
©ELEVATE YOURSELF ABOVE THIS CAPTIVITY:
Elevation...It's all about: ELEVATION!!!
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I'm here as an Iconoclast, to give a new life to & to propel a nation
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A Nation that dwells in subjugation
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Of Under-educated, immature humans, who stay searching for a way out
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But the reality is: How many of us, if released today, would actually stay out?
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I know personally over the span of my years,
I am guilty of being convicted of multiple crimes
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My first time in the joint, I was 18, and since then I've been in prison multiple times
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Knowing what it feels like to lose freedom...I don't want others to have to experience what I have seen, what I have felt, & what I have heard... Unless it through me vicariously
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I can look back now & think how silly, how stupid & how hilariously
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Hilariously Wrong my mentality once WAS!!!
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All I did was smoke marijuana & drink...I stayed buzzed
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Passing out almost every night after a whole day of being drunk
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I treated my woman--THE LOVE OF MY LIFE! like she was some kind of a punk
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I look back now, & I see the trip I was on was: BOGUS & Bunk!
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Blinded & delusional...With all the skeletons stacked up in my trunk
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I couldn't man up to face my own junk & realize my s*** really stunk...
now I'm here in a serious funk
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Writing to you this poem as I sit up in Stafford Creek on my stainless steel bunk
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Everyday I associate with & walk around among the criminally hardened
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Murderers, Manipulators, Sociopaths, who have mastered the art of the scandalous: "I just got over on you FOOL!"....Trades & Bargain
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We communicate by speaking in this specially crafted Penitentiary Jargon
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So my friend I beg of your pardon
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If at times I might come of a little abrasive
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Or rough around the edges, especially when confronted with skeletons of my past I can be quite evasive
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There's just some realities that a muh f***** just don't wanna be faced wit
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You wish you could just go back in time & erase it
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Especially when your actions led to you being caged up like obnoxious primates in a zoo
throwing around they ape s***
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Now tell me if you ever see yourself ever going down this common road?
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It's up to us "Convicts" to change the Culture of prison & the "Convict Codes"
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When they gonna see that all facades of being a "Gangsta" quickly erodes?
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They need to quit tryin to be too "Hard"
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With their "Gangsta" limps... Knowing full well that on the streets they was clucks smoking Wet or Shards
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They need to keep it real....And let down their guard
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We all need to stand up against & abandon the politics...Along with all the stupid attempts to pull another grown man's card
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My friend I'll tell you that: What it all boils down to is: "It's really the most insecure, cowardly & the lame
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Who seek to "Check paperwork" seek to exploit someone & hurt someone in order to get a lil penitentiary fame
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These childish men think life is all jokes, all laughs & all just a game
but in the end--We are all just pretty much the same
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What do they really get out bringing another grown man shame?
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They think they're big, bad & tough because they ran another grown man's name in the dirt
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We all eat the same food, wear the same ole recycled hand me down State Ish jeans & shirts
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We all share the same ole recycled hand me down State Ish khakis & sweats
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We all sit on our gray mattresses & stainless steel bunks trying to escape reality by numbing our minds with "Reality" TV trying to forget about a life full of regrets
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Regardless of the differences in: Races, Cultures, Religions, crimes, modis operandi, Gangs & Sets...
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It ain't no one above nobody...
everybody think they special, but regardless...
Ain't nobody walking out that front gate
until they release date
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For now, all we can do in the meantime & the inbetween time is: Sit idly & wait & wait & wait
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Do our best to avoid these Con Artists, Snakes & Cheapskates
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Feeling low as we watch cops bring BBQ chicken from home, eatin cheesecake smiling/gloating in our faces while they finish off the plate
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Now he talking about: "Man offender, that was great..."
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"You wish you had some didn't you? I wish I could give you a bite...But you gonna be at home someday eatin good like this too...Ain't that right?"
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All the while in the midst of wanting to take it out on the cops, we turn on each other... Angry, fed up--we continue to fight
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While we continue to narrow our sight...These evil & oppressive cops use pepper spray, handcuffs & the threat of loaded AR-15's to flex their might
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It don't matter if you Black, Mexican, Asian or White
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When the war pops off...Man it's all on sight/site
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And anyone who chooses not to partake... They gonna be dealt with by a missile from their own "Car"
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These is the living conditions people choose when they signed up to be apart, now the so called: "Homies" expect everyone to be on/up to "Par"
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We all know there's rules & standards their homies expect everyone to follow
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And if they can't oblige, they find themselves being outcasted & get swallowed
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Then they only got 1 option: there is 2 places for them to go: It's either the infirmary or protective custody...Both is especially made for the drop outs because this is what he gets
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Trying way too hard to impress fools who he thinks care about him, but they NEVER EVER gave a s***
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All in their quest to prove that they was legit
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Now they realize they are stuck in a battle that just ain't ever gonna quit
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So when their throats get slit... Or when they get rattled by them mitts
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What? Are they gon tattle? Or they gon man up & fight back
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Chances are if there ain't no separate Tee, then they both gon go to seg for hot minute...Then--- they both gon be right back
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So is it gon be heads again?
They gon run that?
Or they gon walk away?
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Sittin up in the hole with no distractions, with no TV, with no jp5, & with no dominoes...In those darkest hours cats turned to God & prayed
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But as soon as cats hit mainline again, they forgot about it all & flocked back to the same old way
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And where is that? It's astray...
on the path of ignorance
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Thinking that's the "Code of Conduct" for a "Convict" even though it really ain't...But that don't make no difference
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We are taught to follow, flow with & believe in tainted values created by instigators with not a single hint of sense
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So why do very few of us ever man up, grow up & question the established precedence?
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I think it's because of FEAR!!! & the need to be protected cause members of these gangs can't stand alone
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They will fall & be another man's b**** if left on their own
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I know it sounds harsh, but it's oh so true indeed
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We have to learn how to separate ourselves, & not be dependent on these gangs/cars to fulfill our needs
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Being too obviously needy & codependent in this environment is a weakness that's sets a man up to be taken advantage of... He will always be exploited, it all starts with the manipulator's little seed
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Next you know, the followers get drawn in, thinking they can really follow, accept & live by the creed
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But in reality: It just ain't in them...
They should be on the school floor getting an education, or getting GED & learning how to add, write & read
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I'd encourage cats to leave the day room, leave the dominoes, leave the pinochle, leave the spades, leave the chess, leave the gambling & all the madness/chaos that it breeds
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Then I guarantee that in the long run you'll feel better about yourself & regain your dignity & self esteem
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We all should align ourselves with positive influences & a good support team
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Of people who are going places & gonna contribute productively to society when they get out
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Then one day we can all look back at the past & tell ourselves: "NEVER EVER AGAIN will I go down that ole route!!!"
Don't we all have kids, a family, or a girl whom we give a crap about?
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Well then my guy, let's show them that you not only love them, but that you also LOVE YOU!
Take good care of yourself!!!
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Thanks for your time my friends!
Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center
191 Constantine Way
Aberdeen, WA 98520
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